Rationalization and Talking to Myself

It’s funny how humans rationalize things for themselves. Or maybe it’s just me?

I watch what I eat.

I watch what I eat only so I can smack your hand if you try to take any of it! Ha! No, just kidding, I watch what I eat in order to try to lose and/or maintain my weight. I always have, it’s a curse that I was born short so there’s not a lot of room for the weight to spread itself out. Trust me; if I were 5 foot 6 inches tall I’d be svelte and sleek! Like a panther! Ha again!

Being that I watch what I eat I bought this box of Mini Ice Cream Drumsticks.

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I love Drumsticks, the crunchy peanuts that go everywhere when you pull it out of the wrapper, the yummy hard chocolate coating, and the creamy vanilla ice cream and then the luscious sugary cookie cone that you can munch on to the end. But as much as I love them, I don’t love the carbs and sugar in them.

I try…mind you I said I TRY, to keep my carbs in check and not eat more than 20 to 25 per day. One regular size drumstick has 33 grams of carbs in it. That means if I ate just one regular size drumstick I couldn't eat anymore carbs for the rest of the day!!!

But these yummy mini drumsticks have 18 grams of carbs per each one. So I rationalized to myself that it wouldn't kill me to eat just one mini one, as a treat, one in a while. Right?

So I bought the box.

 Last night I went to eat one and didn't realize the box has both the chocolate fudge and the vanilla caramel in them. I’m not a big fan of chocolate and even less of fudge so when I took the wrapper off and found out it was the fudge one I was bummed out. But I hate to be wasteful so I told myself, “Self, eat the fudge one today, it’s already open and you don’t want to be wasteful, tomorrow you can eat the vanilla caramel one!” So I ate it.

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It was good, but it wasn't vanilla caramel good. An hour or so later, I started talking to myself again and said, “Self, it wasn't your fault that you didn't realize it was a variety pack. You don’t like chocolate, but you were a good girl to not waste it and throw it away, you deserve the vanilla caramel which is what you originally wanted, so be good to yourself, get the vanilla caramel one!” So I did!

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And here’s why I need to have a guard with me 24/7 so that I have someone to talk to other than myself because I again started talking to myself, or my SELF started talking to me and it said “Self, you know if you had eaten a regular drumstick it would have been the size of three mini ones, so if you eat one more mini one it’s almost like you just ate a regular drumstick and then don’t eat anymore for the rest of the week!” My SELF needs to gain some SELF control…hahaha! Because I ate a third one! And I have only my SELF to blame!