But I do like to look at the daily blogging ideas that they give to get your creative juices going.
This one was from yesterday:
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
It would be so easy to list 10 things, 20 things, 50 things…but just one? That makes it so much harder because if you can only change one thing…just one…what would you choose?
The obvious choices would be cosmetic choices, change my weight, my height, the size of my lips, and perfect my vision so I wouldn’t need glasses…those kinds of things. But shouldn’t you choose something greater if you can only change one thing?
Maybe change my job? Find a more challenging career, something that makes me excited to go to work in the morning. Maybe become a dance instructor, but then you have to learn to dance and have some rhythm without tequila and Long Island Iced Teas! A race car driver? Yeah, that would be great! I can totally see myself doing that, but that would mean being gone from home for months on end. And then there’s that crashing thing that doesn’t really appeal to me. See…that’s the thing, I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up!
I guess if I could change one thing it would be to have been a better mother. Being a single mother means that you are torn in a million different directions. Because I had to be mother and father to my kids I did neither job perfectly. I know that no one really does, but if I had to do my life over again I would have been a better mother.
I wouldn't have allowed the daily stresses of work and bills and groceries and dishes and laundry overwhelm me. I would have spent more time with my kids and been more patient with them.
Sometimes at the end of a hard day it was all I could do to use my last remaining bit of energy to make dinner, do dishes, help with homework, give baths, supervise tooth-brushing, read bed time stories and tuck them in. Yeah, I would change that.
What one thing would you change? Think about it…it’s not easy!
You are right it's tough to choose just one thing to change about yourself, but the cool thing is you don't have to.
ReplyDeleteI think you can make whatever cosmetic changes you want, you are losing weight and taking care of yourself, you can change fashions and hair style. We are not static beings. But the really big change you could make is instead of being so critical of yourself about the past, you could recognize that you did a damned good job of raising your kids. Was it perfect? No, but neither is anyone else. You do and did the best you can, and Alicia, I think you have done very well.
So the good news is that you will never have to change just one thing about yourself. The bad news? I don't think there is any bad news, well at least none that we didn't already know. The bad news, nobody gets out of the life alive, but until you take your last breath, you can change all sorts of things about yourself.
True, true! And I will continue to make changes as I go along. Will I have regrets? Yes...that's just human nature because no matter how perfect we think we are (and at times I do think I'm perfect) life will just knock us on our keister!
DeleteBut it's fun sometimes to contemplate the question. It's like the "what if you won a bazillion dollars" question. What would you do? My immediate answer is to pay off my siblings homes, buy a home and pay for the education of each of my nieces and nephews and then what? It's a tough question to answer, even though it sounds easy and you think that you can think of a million ways to spend it...it's not that easy!
But thank you for the kind words. I did do my best, of that I have no doubt :)